My husband came in from his morning time with God and he said to me, “Jesus told me you were healed, that you touched the hem of His garment!”
I felt it in my Spirit too…
Let me back up a few weeks to the doctor’s office early in February of this year. I wasn’t quite prepared for the words the doctor spoke to me after my breast surgery, “the lump we found in your breast is cancerous.” That word CANCER, has a way of making your world stand still and your body to become numb after hearing it. I sat silent in the chair unable to move.
All that kept coming to my mind was a verse in Job:
Should we accept only good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” Job 2:10
This was a crisis of faith for me. Questions swirled! One of the questions I asked myself was, can I trust God no matter what the outcome is? I know God’s promises, I have hidden his Word in my heart for years. I have a relationship with Jesus. I’ve trusted him in so many circumstances and He has led me for years. So, my answer was YES! Yes, I can trust Jesus with the bad because I know that somehow he will work it out for good. My faith has allowed me to step into the unknown, holding the hand of Jesus and trusting him for every answer.
God’s presence was all around me. I felt him so close to me during the weeks that followed. It’s hard to explain to others but sometimes God allows things like this in our lives so we get closer to him and he gives us peace to walk through.
There were a few verses that God gave me to meditate on during this time:
Philippians 1:29 in the NLT translation says, For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him. Wow! It’s a privilege to suffer for Christ! No one has suffered as much as His Son!
1 Peter 1:6 says, So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while.
Trials and suffering will come in this lifetime. In the above verse it says you must endure trials. We can’t escape them… I confess that some days were hard, really hard. I had moments of questioning, doubts and sadness. But on the days when I could be truly glad and rejoice in the suffering, God’s promises came alive, his word came alive, and His presence was so real!
The doctor recommended that I have a second surgery to check my lymph nodes and cell activity in my breast and other tests to determine if the cancer has spread to any other organs in my body. God confirmed to my husband that I was healed after my first surgery, that I touched the hem of His garment. He told me that I wouldn’t need the second surgery but he would support any decision I made. I had decisions to make with my Jesus.
Tucked in Mark 5:25-34 there is a story of desperation. Stop for a few moments and read this beautiful story. A women had been bleeding for twelve years and she knew if she could just touch Jesus’s clothes she would be healed. Verse 28 – “If only I may touch His clothes, I shall be made well.” When she touched his robe her bleeding stopped immediately! Eventually she came before Jesus and admitted that she touched His robe. His words to her were, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.”
I love that story on so many levels…this woman had desperate, daring faith!
Desperate, daring faith!
I felt so much in my Spirit that I was healed but I wanted to be 100% sure that there wasn’t the slightest little area unnoticed so I agreed to the second surgery. Really what I was saying to God was help my unbelief! I so wanted not to have the surgery to walk in my healing but my faith wasn’t strong enough.
My husband Scott talked with the doctor before my second surgery and told him he wasn’t going to find anymore cancer in my lymph nodes or anywhere else in the scans of my body; that God has confirmed that to him. My wife is healed doctor I want you to know that! The doctor just looked at Scott and said, “We shall see.”
Going into surgery that morning and as we prayed, I knew I would come out free and clear of any cancer in my body. I was believing God for a miracle! So many people were lifting me to the Lord! I was so humbled by their prayers!
Faith is touching the hem of His garment and believing…
As they wheeled me in to surgery that morning all I could envision was my hand reaching out and touching the hem of His garment! “Thank you Jesus” was all I remember saying before I was out.
I don’t know all the reasons why God has allowed this to enter my life. But through it, all I wanted was my heart to remain steadfast. To trust my Jesus! To walk with him and to get closer to him through it.
As I began to wake up after surgery I remember the vision and words I spoke to Jesus! I began to smile. I recovered for a little while and then the doctor gave us good news! We couldn’t find any cancer in your lymph nodes or the surrounding tissue of your breast. The other tests came back negative too. I was cancer free! Apparently the cancerous tumor was isolated. He was really troubled by this, you could tell it didn’t make sense to him. Because of the size of the tumor, two inches in diameter, he was expecting to find cancer circulating in my body. I think he believes a little bit more about the power of prayer and the hand of God!
We began praising God! I love this scripture in Psalm 145 starting in verse 4-7
Let each generation tell its children of your mighty acts; let them proclaim your power. I will meditate on your majestic, glorious splendor and your wonderful miracles. Your awe-inspiring deeds will be on every tongue; I will proclaim your greatness. Everyone will share the story of your wonderful goodness; they will sing with joy about your righteousness.
This is what we did! We began to praise God for his mighty acts and wonderful miracles. We proclaimed his greatness and his wonderful goodness. That is what this testimony is all about. Giving glory to him! It’s all about him, always!!
Once a person is diagnosed with any cancer there is a protocol for prevention. I met with my doctor and oncologist and they gave me a plan. I wasn’t quite expecting the words that proceeded from their mouths. It was like sitting in the chair for the very first time hearing “Cancer!”
We want you to do five rounds of harsh chemo, 5 weeks of radiation to the breast and then follow up with Tamoxifen pill for several years to block estrogens…What! I began to cry. I wasn’t expecting anything because they couldn’t find anything. The reason behind to protocol was “incase” it would come back. I was frozen! As they were explaining this to me and my husband my peace vanished. I knew we had to pray about this and seek answers from Jesus.
We went home. I prayed, Scott prayed, we prayed together and each time we did we never received a peace about me following through with this treatment plan. God confirmed to my husband and I that I was healed. I couldn’t follow through. I refused the treatment plan, all of it! I’m believing in complete healing!!
That has been four months ago. Since that time I have made lifestyle changes. A week ago I had a check-up and everything was excellent! My doctor was very pleased with how everything looked. Of course I will need regular check-up and scans but in faith I’m believing that they will be clear!
In verse 34 of Mark 5, Jesus responds, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.”
I’m believing that for myself!!
What miracles are you believing God for in your journey with Him…Do you know you can reach out and touch His hem in desperate, daring faith!
Thank you Father for your miracles. I pray for my friends reading this that they may reach out and touch your hem and believe for their situation whatever it may be! Father, sometimes it’s hard to trust in your will, sometimes you don’t answer the way we want. Give us a heart to trust, give us a faith that doesn’t waiver! I pray for the person reading this that is struggling to find you in the hard circumstance; reveal yourself to them! Help them to grab onto your hand and walk the path with you! Thank you for your presence in our lives and for loving us! Your word tells us that it is a privilege to suffer and that we MUST endure trials in this life. Remind us that you are in the tough times, all we have to do is call out to you, to seek you and you show up in the fullness of your glory!
We love you Lord!