Touched His Hem 2

My husband came in from his morning time with God and he said to me, “Jesus told me you were healed, that you touched the hem of His garment!”

I felt it in my Spirit too

Let me back up a few weeks to the doctor’s office early in February of this year. I wasn’t quite prepared for the words the doctor spoke to me after my breast surgery, “the lump we found in your breast is cancerous.” That word CANCER, has a way of making your world stand still and your body to become numb after hearing it. I sat silent in the chair unable to move.

All that kept coming to my mind was a verse in Job:

Should we accept only good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” Job 2:10

This was a crisis of faith for me. Questions swirled! One of the questions I asked myself was, can I trust God no matter what the outcome is? I know God’s promises, I have hidden his Word in my heart for years. I have a relationship with Jesus. I’ve trusted him in so many circumstances and He has led me for years. So, my answer was YES! Yes, I can trust Jesus with the bad because I know that somehow he will work it out for good. My faith has allowed me to step into the unknown, holding the hand of Jesus and trusting him for every answer.

God’s presence was all around me. I felt him so close to me during the weeks that followed. It’s hard to explain to others but sometimes God allows things like this in our lives so we get closer to him and he gives us peace to walk through.

There were a few verses that God gave me to meditate on during this time:

Philippians 1:29 in the NLT translation says, For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him. Wow! It’s a privilege to suffer for Christ! No one has suffered as much as His Son!

1 Peter 1:6 says, So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while.

Trials and suffering will come in this lifetime. In the above verse it says you must endure trials. We can’t escape them… I confess that some days were hard, really hard. I had moments of questioning, doubts and sadness. But on the days when I could be truly glad and rejoice in the suffering, God’s promises came alive, his word came alive, and His presence was so real!

The doctor recommended that I have a second surgery to check my lymph nodes and cell activity in my breast and other tests to determine if the cancer has spread to any other organs in my body. God confirmed to my husband that I was healed after my first surgery, that I touched the hem of His garment. He told me that I wouldn’t need the second surgery but he would support any decision I made. I had decisions to make with my Jesus.

Tucked in Mark 5:25-34 there is a story of desperation. Stop for a few moments and read this beautiful story. A women had been bleeding for twelve years and she knew if she could just touch Jesus’s clothes she would be healed. Verse 28 –  If only I may touch His clothes, I shall be made well.” When she touched his robe her bleeding stopped immediately! Eventually she came before Jesus and admitted that she touched His robe. His words to her were, Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.”

I love that story on so many levels…this woman had desperate, daring faith!

Desperate, daring faith!

I felt so much in my Spirit that I was healed but I wanted to be 100% sure that there wasn’t the slightest little area unnoticed so I agreed to the second surgery. Really what I was saying to God was help my unbelief! I so wanted not to have the surgery to walk in my healing but my faith wasn’t strong enough.

My husband Scott talked with the doctor before my second surgery and told him he wasn’t going to find anymore cancer in my lymph nodes or anywhere else in the scans of my body; that God has confirmed that to him. My wife is healed doctor I want you to know that! The doctor just looked at Scott and said, “We shall see.”

Going into surgery that morning and as we prayed, I knew I would come out free and clear of any cancer in my body. I was believing God for a miracle! So many people were lifting me to the Lord! I was so humbled by their prayers!

Faith is touching the hem of His garment and believing…

As they wheeled me in to surgery that morning all I could envision was my hand reaching out and touching the hem of His garment! “Thank you Jesus” was all I remember saying before I was out.

I don’t know all the reasons why God has allowed this to enter my life. But through it, all I wanted was my heart to remain steadfast. To trust my Jesus! To walk with him and to get closer to him through it.

As I began to wake up after surgery I remember the vision and words I spoke to Jesus! I began to smile. I recovered for a little while and then the doctor gave us good news! We couldn’t find any cancer in your lymph nodes or the surrounding tissue of your breast. The other tests came back negative too. I was cancer free! Apparently the cancerous tumor was isolated. He was really troubled by this, you could tell it didn’t make sense to him. Because of the size of the tumor, two inches in diameter, he was expecting to find cancer circulating in my body. I think he believes a little bit more about the power of prayer and the hand of God!

We began praising God! I love this scripture in Psalm 145 starting in verse 4-7

Let each generation tell its children of your mighty acts; let them proclaim your power. I will meditate on your majestic, glorious splendor and your wonderful miracles. Your awe-inspiring deeds will be on every tongue; I will proclaim your greatness. Everyone will share the story of your wonderful goodness; they will sing with joy about your righteousness.

This is what we did! We began to praise God for his mighty acts and wonderful miracles. We proclaimed his greatness and his wonderful goodness. That is what this testimony is all about. Giving glory to him! It’s all about him, always!!

Once a person is diagnosed with any cancer there is a protocol for prevention. I met with my doctor and oncologist and they gave me a plan. I wasn’t quite expecting the words that proceeded from their mouths. It was like sitting in the chair for the very first time hearing “Cancer!”

We want you to do five rounds of harsh chemo, 5 weeks of radiation to the breast and then follow up with  Tamoxifen pill for several years to block estrogens…What! I began to cry. I wasn’t expecting anything because they couldn’t find anything. The reason behind to protocol was “incase” it would come back. I was frozen! As they were explaining this to me and my husband my peace vanished. I knew we had to pray about this and seek answers from Jesus.

We went home. I prayed, Scott prayed, we prayed together and each time we did we never received a peace about me following through with this treatment plan. God confirmed to my husband and I that I was healed. I couldn’t follow through. I refused the treatment plan, all of it! I’m believing in complete healing!!

That has been four months ago. Since that time I have made lifestyle changes. A week ago I had a check-up and everything was excellent! My doctor was very pleased with how everything looked. Of course I will need regular check-up and scans but in faith I’m believing that they will be clear!

In verse 34 of Mark 5, Jesus responds, “Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.” 

I’m believing that for myself!!

What miracles are you believing God for in your journey with Him…Do you know you can reach out and touch His hem in desperate, daring faith!

Thank you Father for your miracles. I pray for my friends reading this that they may reach out and touch your hem and believe for their situation whatever it may be! Father, sometimes it’s hard to trust in your will, sometimes you don’t answer the way we want. Give us a heart to trust, give us a faith that doesn’t waiver! I pray for the person reading this that is struggling to find you in the hard circumstance; reveal yourself to them! Help them to grab onto your hand and walk the path with you! Thank you for your presence in our lives and for loving us! Your word tells us that it is a privilege to suffer and that we MUST endure trials in this life. Remind us that you are in the tough times, all we have to do is call out to you, to seek you and you show up in the fullness of your glory!

We love you Lord!

 

When God calls website

I don’t like flying…

The morning when God told me to go visit my Mom by myself for a few months I was blindsided. It was the end of June 2015. I remember in my quiet time that the Lord spoke very clearly to my heart. I was planning on seeing my Mom with my husband in September as she was turning 80 and we were having a party for her and my Son who was turning 30. We already had the tickets booked to go.

My response to the Lord was, “Yes, Lord, I’m going in September, it’s only a few months away.” The Holy Spirit clearly spoke up saying, “I want “you” to book another flight, get on the international flight from Mexico to PA by yourself and visit your Mom! I’m here with you, you will be okay, I will walk with you but you are to go NOW.” The voice wasn’t audible or anything, but I knew in my spirit that I better follow through with what God was saying.

I’ve never flown by myself…

Tucked into Hebrews 11:6 in the first part of the verse it says, and without faith it is impossible to please God! God isn’t pleased if we aren’t trusting Him.

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Putting our two feet forward and stepping into the unknown with our Jesus, that’s faith, and it pleases Him!”

If I can be honest, I don’t always hear the Lord speak to me like that. Or maybe I do and dismiss it for my own plan. It was very clear that morning. I knew what I had to do. I cleared my schedule right away.

A few days later my husband kissed me goodbye and I was off into the skies by myself. It’s amazing when we step into His plan that a peace just floods our hearts. Everything went smoothly as the Lord said. My fears and doubts melted away!

For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. Philippians 2:13

If you are His child then when He calls you to do something He gives you the desire and the power to follow through no matter how hard it feels to you. This is what pleases Him. We all have fears and doubts that can surround our thoughts an hearts. Your fear and doubts look different than mine but they can be so real.

Our Jesus says, “Take my hand, I’ll lead the way into the unknown, you can always trust in my plan because I love you. I work all things for good and this will bring me glory.”

Ten days into my visit with my Mom His will began to unfold and the unknown was revealed. To shorten the story, my Mom ended up having a deep vein blood clot. The day she had her episode no one was home, I was the only one there to assist her. I don’t like to ever assume things but if I wasn’t there with her I don’t know how the story would have ended. Only God knows…

For the next three months I was able to care for my Mom, be at her side, assist with her therapy and speak about how faithful our God is. I would have missed all of that had I not listened to the Lord. Sure, I could have gotten a ticket after the news but it wouldn’t have been the same or shown the Lord’s glory. God wanted me to be obedient — to step out and to share with others what He was telling me to do. It didn’t make sense to others, but then it did! God was revealed to them.

God speaks to us all differently. My encounter may look different than yours. But He does speak to his children today. He is there to instruct us, teach us and to counsel us. He does all of this with His loving eye on us guiding us into the unknown. We have to be willing to listen

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. Psalm 32:8

God can display His glory any way He chooses. He likes to use His children in the process. We have to get to a place that we follow the Lord’s will and not our own. We can talk ourselves out of anything and come up with all the excuses we want. I could have talked my way out of going to see my Mom early.

Begin today to trust in the Lords plans. Your fears and doubts will fade when you take a leap of faith and trust in His beautiful plan. It won’t always be easy or comfortable and at times it may be unpleasant but there are treasures to be found only when we step out in Faith. He’s waiting for you to surrender to His will…

What do you need to surrender to the Lord today? Is He calling you to something?

Father, I pray for my friends and myself to have a faith so trusting that nothing will stop us from following your will. We know that pleases you. Help us not to shrink back in fear and doubts or listen to lies from the enemy. We know that you have your loving eye on us and everything you have for us is good and perfect. We want a strong faith, one that doesn’t waiver. Thank you for teaching and instructing us. Help us to be still and listen and then we can hear from you!        In Jesus name, Amen

I’M BACK IN THIS SPACE

I have been gone for quite awhile, eight months to be exact. So much has transpired during that time; it  might be hard to catch up.

But God clearly said, I want you back in your space to write and to share.

I’m being obedient…

One of the things that God is showing me is that we all have a story. We all have a voice. We all have something to share with others. Satan can rear his ugly head sometimes and whisper other things. But who are we going to believe.

I’m choosing to believe my Jesus…

Life can take you by surprise sometimes. Our plans can take twists and turns. We can be blindsided. When that happens we have to hold on to the hand of Jesus a little tighter. We have to purpose in our hearts and believe that God is working the twists and turns for good.

He does you know…

These past eight months God has done some amazing things. I have learned so much walking and trusting Him. I think that is why He allows these “Surprises” sometimes. For His glory and our good.

I don’t have a plan but He does. My Jesus knows what my space will look like. What He wants me to share, I will wholeheartedly. I look forward to connecting again with all of you. I have missed the interaction.

A verse I am praying right now is: “My heart is steadfast O God, My heart is steadfast; I will sing and make music” Psalm 57:7

How important it is to remember that my heart is enduring patiently O GOD! In good times, in silent times, in tough times and in uncertain times.

I will sing and make music…

I’ve been absent in this place for a few weeks now. God has moved us into our new home and we have been working ever since. Then sickness came…

I don’t need to talk about all that, but I do need to give praise to God for all the wonderful things He is doing in our lives. I know God is up to something wonderful! I’m just really trusting in that. It is amazing that His blessings always out number our hardships. I just love how God takes care of all the little details and cares for us each and everyday.

We had so many wonderful dear friends help assist us over the last several weeks. I appreciate them and I know that blessings are going to flow their way! I have boxes yet to unload and pictures to hang but it will get done before long. This time I took the expectations off myself and I’m just enjoying going through all the things that God has blessed us with.

With that being said, I will be away for a little from the blog. I hope to return by the first part of August and jump into writing and sharing my heart with all of you.

Have a beautiful Summer, Tammy

Trust in the Lord with all your heart!

Today is our 26th wedding anniversary. All odds were against us from the very beginning but God had other plans. Plans for good and plans for redemption. I share my story here in this space to encourage and give hope to those who feel like giving up. I almost did! God captured my heart.

My name is Tammy Provins and you can read a short chronicle about me and my family here.

This week my husband Scott and I are moving into our fourth rental home in five years. We are missionaries here in the beautiful city of San Miguel Mexico. I almost opted out to share this week because of the move but God slowed me down enough to write a few words and share with you all in this community. I look forward to getting to know each of you in this space.

Here are a few things you may want to know about me that aren’t written here, on my blog —

*Today, we have been in Mexico five years! Hard to believe. Yes, my husband and I crossed the border into Mexico on our anniversary with our belongings five years ago. When we received the call from God to come minister here, I knew without a doubt this was it. Even though it wasn’t easy to leave, we have seen the hand of God move. I couldn’t imagine my life anywhere else.

God hears our prayers! My husband and I prayed specifically for God to  use our lives exactly where he wanted us when Scott lost his job six years ago. Through fasting, prayer and faith, God led us to San Miguel. To learn more about our ministry you can visit our website

Here are a few tidbits about me:

*I love to work with paper, any kind. I love to scrapbook and create things. I’m looking forward to our move into our new home because I will have my own space to do some of these things. I’m thrilled!

*I love the beach — I love water — rivers, lakes, ponds or here in Mexico we have heated hot springs or grutas. So relaxing, so beautiful.

*I’m quiet and reserved sometimes. I’m learning through His grace to share more of me with others. I know, not the usual personality of a Pastor wife, but God is always stretching and molding, pulling and guiding. It hurts but feel so right. Trusting in His plan is my hearts desire.

*I don’t consider myself a writer but God prompted me to start this blog two years ago to share my story with others. I obeyed even when I didn’t understand. I have met some beautiful ladies throughout, and I’m so blessed.

I’m looking forward to getting to know each of you, your stories and your love for Jesus here at #TheLoft I want each of you to know that I am always available.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. Proverbs 3:5-7

In His Grace, Tammy